being 26
I have been thinking of a special entry for my 26th birthday but I can’t seem to think of a good one. Something better than what I’ve written last year. Hmmm… 
When I turned 24, I thought of doing something new as what some Chinese does. It was said that a person begins his life anew on his 12th year, a new life cycle. How would I explain it? Well, the 12th year will be your Chinese Astrological Sign and when you reach it, it would be good way to start something new. Some Chinese start their own business at 24 and/or marry at the age of 36 and so on. Making great changes is the main thing. 
I’m party Chinese and I thought that it won’t be bad to do just the same. I had my hair braided last 2004 and that has been quite a shock for many. “You’re not a nigger!”, some have said. I didn’t care. It followed some more changes like having my own blog. In this way, I have partly opened my life in public. Although there aren’t so many people visiting it, I have still partly opened my door for public viewing. On the spring of 2004, I had a Retreat at The Steyler Missionary in Steyl, Netherlands with the youth group and since then I have been more active in the Church especially in singing in the choir. That year has seen another part of me. The last quarter of the same year had made me involved in leading the youth group together with some of my friends and that has become the major step that I have ever made.
We have become so dedicated with it last year, 2005, and we really reached success. That was the year the TROPA was born. Through the activities that we have organized, I have learned a lot of new things and was able to develop some more that I already knew. It has given more self confidence (although I think I still need to have more boost of it). It has also taught me on being more responsible. After having a few days at Taizé, France last summer, I have deepen my faith and told myself to do more for the TROPA. The World Youth Day encounter last August has also brought a stronger drive for me to do more.
The last two years of my stay here in Germany has taught me a lot. I would never say that it has changed me or it has renewed me. I think it’s more appropriate to say that the other side of me has surfaced and with all that made me more mature (although still not enough).
Having reached this age, brought me mixed emotions. I am so glad to have achieved such with only just 2 years and at the same time, it worries me. Being 26 makes me think that I’m old enough and should have already started a career. A few more years and I’d already be at the marrying age but I still haven’t built a career. I actually do not have a blue print to start with. Many are telling me that I’m still young and should never worry because I still got a long way for myself. But I guess they are just saying that because they are older than I am.
I know there is still a lot of work to be done in order for me achieve my dreams. I know changing my attitude will make a great difference and starting it now would the perfect idea. I shouldn’t be afraid of risking for this will sharpen my senses in using tactics in life survival. I am laid back and I have to sometimes kick my ass to get me working.
I’m not getting any younger but I’m glad I’m learning a lot and discovering the things in life more worthy of counting. 
As usual, nag-snow na naman sa birthday ko. Actually, hindi ko na in-expect 'yun kasi medyo tumaas na ang temperature pero, nag-snow pa rin. These pics were taken this morning after having our brunch at ate meng's house. We celebrated my birthday with finger foods and red wine. Naka-pangtulog pa ako niyan. They dared me on having a pic taken outside. So, I went outside bare foot in pyjamas. hehehe
Currently feeling: happy
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