MY LIFE IS IN MONO!!!

I want to blame Germany for that! But I guess it also depends on me. My lifestyle has changed drastically!

Here, being on another country is just like going to manila from obando. I can now buy branded shoes and clothes. I can enjoy great steaks and wines. I can buy home appliances and stuff that I can never have at home because of financial reasons.

My life has changed, alright! But the simplicity that I used to have has given me more happiness. I used to enjoy those nights 'coz I spend it with friends who really know the real you! Having someone to talk to when your down is not a problem. Having nothing for dinner isn't also a problem since there is a nearby carinderia or buy liempo and barbeque at ka zeny. I'm always watching good TV programs and the latest movies. I... I...

i miss the old me...

My life here has been schedule based. Each day each week is planned and organized. I have to fit myself on the schedule of the busses, trains etc. I have to plan my day ahead or else I won't be able to coordinate it well witht he schudules of others. I hate it!

Sometimes I'm asking myself if I still have to stay here. Is it still worth it? Should I be more patient? Or should I still take the risk and perhaps the chances that I'm dreaming of is still actually hand reach?

I guess if there's something I have to do, it's rearranging my life! On how to do it? I'll still figure it out!