i do not know why my migraine has been hitting me hard frequently. i remember last year when i came here, the same season, it has also hit me hard. was it due to the season?

i'm actually having hard time sleeping. umiinom na nga ako ng gatas pero wah epek pa rin. tanginis!

on a lighter note; last friday, our teacher taught us the vulgar and curse words being used by germans. tawa kami nang tawa. marami rin akong nasabi. sinabihan nga ako na alam ko na yata lahat. hehehe.
kanina naman, she shared the terms being used in sex. nagtawanan na naman kami. at gaya ng dati, i also shared what i know! hekhekhek.

as i get off the car of my friend last night, i noticed that it's not just raining. flakes of snow are also falling. i was surprised 'coz it's not yet winter. the temperature has been relatively lower. it even registers negative degrees in the early mornings.

november is known, in germany, for the fog. that's why they say, "November Nebel" as to "Goldene Oktober" for the golden leaves of autumn. snow doesn't usually fall in this part of germany in this time of the year. it seldom does.

as the surrounding begins to turn white, i feel a bit sad. i missed the way christmas is celebrated in the philippines. most filipinos would be envious but i guess i have more to be envious of the filipinos in the philippines for they will experience, as always, a very joyful time although life at home isn't so easy.

i also wished of playing in the snow as a kid. but i never wanted to have it exchanged from colorful lights and decorations, simbang gabi, christmas carols, christmas rush to the puto bumbong, bibingka, tsaa and hot pan de sal. there are more things in our cpountry far better than snow.

most of my friends tease me of having a white christmas. i told them that it cannot beat the colorful filipino christmas with all the lively spirit one can feel.

pressured ako!!!!

ang dami kong dapat asikasuhin!!!

hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat unahin! ! !

sinasabayan pa ng kalungkutan! !!!

tanginang shit!!!!!

i just need someone who'll listen to me!!!

i need some comfort!!!

Currently feeling: Scheiße !!!

i've seen these info on the net...

whew...

so, i'm a demon...

In Armenian mythology, Ays is an evil demon and the personification of the wind. In this form he is able to enter the body of a human being, who will either go mad or become a demon himself. Ays belongs to the Dev, a group of immortal spirits.

In ancient Armenian mythology, they are a group of immortal spirits who inhabit old ruins. They mingle with the living. Some of them are beneficent, such as the dog-shaped Aralez who restores those fallen in battle to life by licking their wounds. Others, such as Ays, Vishap and the torturer Chival, are truly evil.

Currently feeling: devilish

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my real name is american;
my surname is spanish.
i'm absolutely filipino
but i look like chinise.
currently living in germany
and doin' it independently.
it isn't so easy
but it's not a problem with me.
some people think i'm weird
and i think they're just stupid.
if you think you're interested
just click and add me...
get inside my thoughts
and know me more.
take a peek
and do it real slow...