Entries for June, 2004
June 1st, 2004
U-TURN
WHY DOES OUR ROADS KEEP ON CROSSING?
we keep on parting yet we also keep on crossing paths. i don't know why. perhaps, it's because we never say goodbye.
it was in manila. i went with you to an appointment. on our way out of the building, i asked you, "where do you want to go then?"
"going home would be a better idea.", you answered.
"i want to watch a movie. do you want to go with me?", i asked you.
"sorry, i'd rather go home. i'm already tired. thanks anyways.", you politely say.
"tha'ts alright. just take care on your way home.", i told you.
you went on your way and i stayed for a while to light a cigarette. i proceed on walking and never looked backed. i don't know if you didn't looked back too.
we still had little talks but it became fewer than usual... until i never reached you again.
i went on with my life then i learned that you left. i had my share of life's difficulties and an incident forced me to leave.
we bumped in cyberspace... our roads crossed paths again...
i do not know why...
i asked myself, "now what!?!" 
Currently listening to: back to you by john mayer
Currently feeling: uncertain
Posted by ays at 04:24 PM as a favorite post |
June 2nd, 2004
a silent day...
my back was so heavy that i can't lift it up my bed. i have to go to school though. i went directly to the bathroom, had a leak and turned on the shower heater.
i decided to have breakfast. i opened my fridge and saw the left-over pansit. i heat it in the microwave then drank an apple juice. i am moving so slow. the day is in slow mo.
after i had dressed up, i went out and walked to my bus stop. i missed it. it passed by while i'm waiting for the green light to cross the street. scheiße!
i waited for the next bus. scheiße ulit! ang bagal ng driver. hindi ko tuloy naabutan ang "u-bahn" (subway).
late na 'kong dumating sa klase. bumati ako ng mahina sa kanilang lahat... tahimik lang akong tumungo sa upuan ko... hindi kumikibo habang inilalabas ko ang mga gamit ko... alam kong nakatingin sila sa akin pero hindi ko sila pinansin.
nang mag-pause (break) na kami, nagsalita ang "crush" ko. binati niya ang pagiging tahimik ko ngayon. hindi kasi ako ganoon. palagi akong nakangiti at nangungulit. nginitian ko lang siya. pero hindi ngiting pa-cute na lagi kong ibinibigay sa kanya.
lahat sila nag-tanong. pati na ang teacher ko. sabi ko, "wala lang, okay lang ako!"
natapos ang klase na hindi ako nangulit. nilapitan ako ng "crush" ko at muling tinanong. ganoon pa rin ang sinagot ko. hindi na ko nakipag-usap pa ng matagal. wala akong ganang makipag-flirt sa kanya.
tahimik lang akong naglakad-lakad... ewan...
Currently listening to: sound of silence
Currently feeling: mellow
Posted by ays at 02:44 PM |
June 13th, 2004
a busy week...
the past week was a tight one. my choir has to prepare for a folksong in tagalog which we will be singing on a program after a holy mass in Köln. we must also sing for the thanksgiving mass for our independence day.
damn! napuyat ako ng husto at napagod. it paid off though.
last thursday was holiday. the church celebrated the feast of the body of christ. we went to Köln to represent our country. our filipino parish priest was there to celebrate the masswith the german priests.
the people from poland, spain, portugal, korea, india and, of course, the philippines was there wearing their respective traditional costumes.
after the mass, we made a procession. dala namin ang kanya-kanyang flag para ma-recognize kami. it was so nice.
in the afternoon, there was a program. a group of young filipinos danced "tinikling" while the older women danced "fandango sa ilaw." and we sang "sa libis ng nayon."
after the thanksgiving mass last 12th of june. we had a gathering. may mga presentations din at siempre maraming pagkain. wala nga lang "sarsa ni mang tomas" para sa "lechon." nakalimutan sigurong bumili.
kulang pa ko sa tulog. pero marami pa ring mga invitacion. mamaya may picnic kami... may grill... mabubusog na naman ako. slurp!
Currently feeling: cheerful
Posted by ays at 11:37 AM |
June 16th, 2004
home sick...
i miss home. halos siyam na buwan na akong nakatira dito pero it seems like i've been here for years. i miss a lot of things, people, places, food... halos lahat. sigh.
Currently feeling: lonesome
Posted by ays at 01:43 PM |
June 19th, 2004
i won't be alone anymore... somehow.
i was informed that my dad will be going back this month in germany. salamat naman at makakatikim na rin ako ng tunay na lutong ulam. i don't cook that much kaya kadalasan binibigyan na lang ako ng lutong ulam ng tita ko. (special delivery).
though my dad and i won't be living together 'coz he'll be staying in berlin for his work, okay lang. at least i won't be feeling alone as much as i am today.
gumawa na nga ako ng listahan ng mga iuuwi niya para sa akin. hehehe.
nauna sa listahan ang roaming sim para may mag-text sa aking kaibigan sa 'pinas. mga kuripot kasi ang mga hinayupak!
humingi rin ako ng choconut. miss ko na rin 'yun. wala kasi sa mga asian shop dito eh.
gusto ko rin ng kapeng barako. ipatitikim ko sa mga kaibigan ko dito lalo na sa mga german. ipakikilala ko sa kanila kung gaano katapang 'to. hehehe.
sabi ng ate ko, magpapadala raw siya ng philippine star at iba pang babasahin. kultado na ang utak ko sa german.
kung pwede lang ipadala ang 'pinas at isingit sa europa, ginawa ko na. siguro kasya na ang 'pinas sa medditerranean sea. (tama ba ispeling) tapos isasali rin natin sa eu para euro na rin ang pera natin. harharhar.
Currently feeling: buwang
Posted by ays at 12:05 PM |
June 29th, 2004
kabado!
this week, we'll be having our final test. damn! would i do good? i must study harder. hindi pa naman ganoong kadali. i don't want to review, tinatamad ako. wwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Currently reading: german dictionary and stufen international
Currently feeling: lazy
Posted by ays at 11:58 AM |
